I related so much to the joke ‘adulting is hard’. I've dreaded growing up and getting all the responsibilities and fitting in like those before me. Looking at the adults in my life (before their transformations) I was not looking forward to becoming that. It didn't make sense. You are forced to do so many things that you don't want to do but it's part of the world.. It's what it means to be an adult - 90% slaving away and 10% everything else.
I remember asking questions and challenging believes and the response was that's just the way things are.
I had a bit of the bad, just enough to know that it's not what my life is going to be.
It's a choice, and it's my choice.
I can choose to make things easier. I can choose the path of least resistance.
There's still uncomfortable situations, emotions, work, processes and it takes time. But it makes sense now, there's a reason for it and you see the results. My feelings matter, what I want matters...
I don't need hope for the future because I am living it. I can see the world is what I make of it. I am so happy and excited that I got this opportunity. The choice.
Now that I am considered an adult, I realize I still don't know everything... It begs the question who does know everything? Should I follow something because it's what everyone else is doing, or should I take the path that feels right to me?
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