I am the knight in shining armour

I am the knight in shining armour

I am the one who does the right thing no matter the cost

I am the one who knows the path

I am the one that defends the weak and protects the good

I am the one the world has been waiting for

I am the one that can fix everything for everyone

I always knew this

And then I crash

And I sometimes think why me?

Is there a world in which it doesn’t all come down on me

When friends and family looked at my burden they told me

The world is not your problem,

You do not have to be Jesus to all

But still I knew I was the one, no matter that i want to run sometimes

And then one day somebody did not not say lower your burden,

But instead said I can help you be strong enough

I can help you to be an us not a one

And then we can change things

But this came at a price … you cannot hope to make a difference

You have to decide to take authority to make it happen

You cannot hope and crash

You have to measure and shift.

I could see the difference, and I believed

One by one we did pick up pieces and got

a wonderful support structure of amazing people around me

The path got clearer and more believed

And then I crashed …

Because somewhere I became a martyr and I never saw …

If I am not there

If I always sacrifice myself

If I keep on taking on burdens that are not mine

Purely because the one who’s burden it is does not show up

Or some other excuse

I was not the knight in shining armour

I was someone with a purpose

And I realised that there is only one way I am going to change the world

And that is by doing my part

First having to find who I am

And then granting everyone else the power to fall, to stand

And to realise who they are

I have to be me …

And here is the catch “Me” need to become important to me

It is not anyone else’s job to make me stand

It is my first job ,I need to acknowledge that I matter

And if I matter and can stand on my own

Then I can do my part

I can find my value

And I can gift my value to someone or someones

And then they can find their value and gift it

But none of this can happen if

I am the knight in shining armour, if

I am the one who does the right thing no matter the cost

The cost matters, I matter and I want to start loving me

I want to start embracing me

Meijert I am sorry

I am not the knight in shining armour that sacrifices all for some cause

I am one who believes We can make a difference

if We follow our heart and soul.